to read between the lines of everyday life.

Hi!

2011-03-29T15:35:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry I haven't been posting much. Here's a funny cat video to make up for it :(

It's a cat in a box! My sense of humour. Ha :'D

Okay so now I'm on semester break I have time to take a breather and let my faithful readers know that I'm still alive and kicking :D Hello! /waves at imaginary faithful readers

Finished my last exam last Monday and I have been spending my week since then riding a wave of ups and downs, bring on the bipolar.

First 5 hours after exam: CELEBRAAAAAAATE.
Next 3 days: spirals into depression. I'm so uselessss. What do I do for 2 weeks until college starts again D:
Next few days: discovering purpose in life in being slave for Impact youths. Baaah.
These two days: catching up on sleep O_O I don't know if I've ever slept so much in a single stretch of time before. And actually felt good about it.

And of course, my time in between has been filled with Inksight meeting, being Pop's editor (he's the only one that can tahan my compulsion to over-edit .___.), getting into an accident, and hanging out with my boy :) (so I tried doing the Barney thing and saying his name without smiling. fail.)

Impact girls' sleepover was...good. Surprisingly enjoyable. I think all the girls were, from the start, very open to each other...and to junk food. Junk food! I'm so proud of them girls. So it was a good night of goofing off, weird old games, pigging out, and painting nails.

And finding out about Nicole Kew's amazing hands. Yup.

Since that weekend was nonstop, fun-filled, action-packed, I've been catching up on much-needed rest. Think, 7 hours on Sunday afternoon, 13 hours on Sunday night, 10 hours Monday night. Actually I might be catching that disease Jireh always tells me about, the one in which your sleep patterns are insane and totally uncontrollable butdamntheyfeelsogood :/ /hypochondriac appeased

BUT! I vow to be more useful for the next few days of my break. Pay a visit/my respects to Lizzie in school, finish reading a junkload of books I've been putting off since January.

And maybe catch up on more sleep.

End of pointless rant :D

My mom and I have the weirdest conversations.

2011-03-11T13:08:00.003+08:00

"Kay Jen?"

"Yeah?"

"Kay Jen?"

"Yeah?"

"Kay Jen?"

"YES?"

"Are you there?"

"Yes...? o__o"

*silence*

OH GOOD GRACIOUS. For cryin' out loud!

I swear this just happened two minutes ago and I had to blog it.

Meme Time!

2011-02-25T18:56:00.004+08:00

Kuhjen : You have to do what I say because I'm a princess today :)

Kenny : Who said you are? /incredulous

Kuhjen : So what now, you're the princess?

Kenny : Yes, that's exactly it *smug*

Kuhjen : ...v_v well screw you, I'm the Swan Queen.

---

So date night was good. Like, happy good. I don't really have much to say because we watched Black Swan and it sucked out all my will to speak of the night. So I will only say two things.

#1 I was given, in Hui Ying's words, fuh-laaawas! For the first time in my uh life. Ok so sorry for a jakun moment there. Aren't they gorgeous!

#2 We're really not good at the picture thing. This was after the 5 millionth time we attempted to take a nice shot to commemorate the night (or it was just my excuse to camho', whatev) and I accidentally switched to video. And we never remember to take pictures of the nummy food because, well, we basically attack it as soon as it's served. :/

Look how enthusiastic my boy is! :p

Yup ok and that's all! I feel myself crashing after the sugar high just now.

I might be getting too darn old for sugar highs :/

Change

2011-02-18T22:29:00.005+08:00

When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits, I dreamed of changing the world. As I grew older and wiser, I discovered the world would not change, so I shortened my sights somewhat and decided to change only my own country.

But it, too, seemed immovable.

As I grew into my twilight years, in one last desperate attempt, I settled for changing only my family, those closest to me; but alas, they would have none of it.

And now as I lie on my deathbed, I suddenly realize: If I had only changed myself first, then by example I would have changed my family.

From their inspiration and encouragement, I would then have been able to better my country and, who knows, I may even have changed the world.

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No idea where that quote is from, I got it off someone's somebody's somewhere blog in the wonderful world of the internet. Just a little thought to share for those of us who, you know, aren't on our deathbeds yet. Also a reminder for myself.

On a completely unrelated note;

CLOSE ENOUGH

Ok and it's off to work again for me. Buh bye!

True story.

2011-02-14T20:33:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day, err'one.

Happy Chilese Lu Year!

2011-02-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

We Chinese have it so good. We celebrate the New-New Year with the rest of the world, where we go all out with the fireworks, the partying, the booze, the meaningless wishes and resolutions, and the general chaos.

And then we celebrate our exclusive Chinese New Year, where we go all out with the fireworks, the partying, the food, the meaningless wishes, the ang pao, and the general chaos. And we take it one step further by celebrating 15 days of it. Yup, we're so awesome we can outdo any freaking celebration :)

Did I mention the fireworks?

It was great the first night in Batu Pahat, Johor, with the floating lanterns, and fireworks exploding basically everywhere you'd think every family in that small town bought their own fireworks. Not just the small lame ones that fizzle and crackle and die out before making a valid impression on anyone, either. Big ass epic ones that's Beijing Olympics-worthy. (That's a small exaggeration, if you didn't catch it.)

Beautiful. At first.

And then they started doing it every night.

Bloody Chinese find any excuse to set off fireworks.

Blergh anyway I'm done with ranting today. Lack of sleep has made me incredibly grumpy and I have been storming around all day and ranting and kicking Razik's shins, poor dude. It's not his fault the universe has conspired to be irritating today.

Picture time!

Ok this is technically not Chinese New Year related, but I went to Waffle World with Kenneh Kan before leaving for Johor and we shared a waffle nom nom nom.

Look at that beautiful thing! The syrup! The vanilla ice-cream! The peaches! (Which Kenny claims are canned and therefore not real peaches =.=) Sitting on top of a golden-brown crispy melt-in-your-mouth freshly made waffle. For 7 bucks?

Worth it, in my opinion. :)'

The sunset view in front of my house :) We've been blessed with pretty good weather these few days, apart from yanno, the floods and stuff. Surprisingly good weather, because the weather usually conspires around this time of year to make CNY visitations/gatherings/traveling as dull and hot and torturing as possible.

And look what Kenny found in his car! After its disappearance for almost half a year, I believe. Still in good condition sitting nicely in one corner of his backseat wtf. Good for me because I was heartbroken when I thought I lost it :(

Favourite charm bracelet, ever.

We (5 cousins + 3 siblings) went on a Ramly's rampage in Kluang. Best. Ramly's. EVER. They fry it with curry powder and marijuana leaves. The latter is just a guess though.

This is my brother's Ramly's burger; it's called the Double Double Special. Picture doesn't look impressive? It had two eggs with double yolks (2 + 2 = 4 yolks!), two amazing magic patties, cheese lettuce onions sauce buns the whole jazz.

I gained 3kg just gazing at it in awe.

Ok that's pretty much the extent of my 2011 CNY experiences. Not much, I know, but hey! There's still 10 more days of it left! :)

Jim Parsons: not scared of spiders?

2011-02-01T21:07:00.001+08:00

Akakakaka.

Cam'ho.

2011-01-25T00:14:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry, I know it seems that whenever I post pictures of myself here, it has to be with Kenneh. I don't deny it.

The sad truth is that I usually only cam'ho with him around because -- well, I usually only feel pretty enough to cam'ho, around him /ashamed

[camwhore!]

Although looking at this picture I'm thinking maybe it's only cos comparing to him

WTF HAHAHA I'm kidding I'm kidding XD

He's really super handsome one, only not in these coupla pics pffsht.

Woi can you pls give just ONE normal face; just ONE!

...or that. That works too.

[/camwhore!]

I am utterly shameless :'D

And of course, this was all taken on Sunday during my surprise b'day party :S Now I can't use "I never had a surprise party" when playing I Never anymore T_T

Yes, it was my first ever surprise birthday organized by the Kan, and to be honest I never knew how scary these kinda surprises were. Imagine: dark house, door flies open, people screaming. I start screaming. I'm too terrified to react.

Okay, yeah. That's how it was.

Anyway, gigantic scare aside, thank you guys so much for Saturday night. I went home feeling ever so luuuuurved :D

*pic stolen from Jeff Chok

See the lurve! SEE IT!

(Distraction: you see my face when I take pikcha with other ppl! As compared with when I take pikcha with him only! Not so pretty. With him: slightly more pretty. That's what I'm talkin' bout! /self-obsessed wtf)

So again I say: Thank youuuuuuuuu :')

And since we're on the subject of birthdays I might as well show off what I did during my other not-so-surprising b'day dinner with the family.

Three words: OM NOM NOM.

Meh come to think of it, I guess lomo really does make everything look better.

I love my pa.

Gotta work on my journalism blog now. I am currently playing jump rope with my emotions regarding Principles of Journalism: both hating and loving the subject :( It's intensely interesting, and yet, the work is just, bleh.

BTW I have developed a raging vendetta against all people who overuse the comma.

I'm the kind of girl, who will cry, if you do not call me back.

I guess, I just, really need, that attention.

Holy crap super drama is it! Slap you la don't misuse grammar in the name of drama. Garrrrrr.

...ok and that's really all I have to say tonight O:)

Nuh-night sleep tight *wiggles fingers*

Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom - Parry Gripp

2011-01-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

Flying fishcakes, this is adorableeee.

Final post as an 18-year old, and it has to be brainless kthxbai.

Because, what did my Journalism lecturer say?

"A pre-requisite to your intellectual death"?

Speaking of journalism, here's my other blog that I've set up for my journalling project.

http://kayjenno.blogspot.com/

Yes, I'm aware that the title is the same as my personal blog's. So sue me for a lack of creativity -- the important thing is THEY don't know it :'D

Ridin' solo.

2011-01-14T16:55:00.003+08:00

Confession: I like doing many things alone.

I like working alone, writing alone, driving alone, shopping alone, exercising alone. Sometimes even eating alone D: (only when I'm at home though.)

To be honest, being around people is very tiring. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I love hanging out with them. But every time I get home from college, church, or an outing I find myself spending at least 2 hours locked in my room reading a book, napping, or listening to music. Basically, recharging. Is this weird? :S

In fact, the only people I feel totally comfortable with even after spending many hours with them, are my immediate family. But that's because I've lived almost 2 full decades with them already so I'm used to them. Besides, they're so used to my moods that I can be grumpy without holding back if I need to be :D

Even so, my favourite place in the whole house is my own room, where the door is always locked and the curtains almost always drawn.

Stay on your side!

Boo, I sound like a hermit.

I think this obsession with having my own little space where nobody invades permanently (i.e. my room) started when I was a kid with eczema XD You know how, say, your foot has got a little itch in it so you rub it. Then someone sees you and snaps, "DON'T SCRATCH IT! Bad for your skin!" and as soon as he says that, it immediately becomes even more itchy.

The more you try to control your fingers, the worse it becomes. So you tahan and tahan for like half an hour, finally snap, excuse yourself to "use the loo", find a private place where nobody can see and stop you, and scratch said itchy spot. Aaaaaahhhhh, relief.

So I think I've come to associate private places with relief and sanctuary HAHAH wtftheory.

Haih I think when I get married also I will have to have my own private room wtf.

College started two days ago and it was purty good. Apparently I don't have Bahasa Kebangsaan this semester (YASSSSSSSS!) so it really is only 2 subjects. 6 hours on Monday and 6 hours on Wednesday :D

I was damn happy at first, then I spent yesterday and today not knowing what to do with all my time. Now I'm like o_____________________o*

What. The. Heck. Am I going to do on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays? Until March?

My Principles of Journalism lecturer is Sharaad (ask me how to pronounce that when you see me, it's got to have a Brit ring to it) and he is...interesting. Quite funny. I tried calling him Mr Sharaad, but he doesn't want that wtf. Will have to stick to sir. I cannot ever get used to first-name basis with my lecturers wtf.

And of course, Media Criticism with Ms Su again....

/crawls into corner

/not wanting to know PR exam results

/forever shamed

...which she claims is an intensely boring subject. But the introduction was quite intriguing to me...I'd better not speak too soon though :(

OKAY I'd better stop rambling. Off to see my boy in a few hours :DD

Baaaaaaiiii.

ROTD: Simple Plan

2011-01-12T11:42:00.002+08:00

I'm Just A Kid - Simple Plan

Flying lambchops will you listen to those lyrics!

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

Tonight.

It baffles me how Simple Plan could have ever been popular or even slightly appealing to the masses. Because I happen to know that only a minor segment of the population were made up of bratty 13-year-olds in 2005 WTF (/nonetheless proud of being a 92'er) which...if I remember correctly...was the peak of their fame? Correct me if I'm wrong :S

Unless we were ALL that whiny in 2005 /horrified

In which case I completely lose faith in and respect for any older generations.

But then again it's not like today's mainstream music has taken a step forward since then also la come to think of it. (Of course when I say that, Justin Bieber singing about how he can't score older chicks primarily comes to mind.) (Justin Bieber should seriously get some lessons in scoring cougars from Adam Levine though wtf Adam always gets the older chick.)

Ok mindless ranting before my first day of college :D

Off to take my antibiotics and pack up!

Btw if you haven't figured out, ROTD simply means Rant Of The Day. Like makeup bloggers' FOTD or LOTD or NOTD. But since I'm a makeup/fashion/self-grooming noob I can only give you Rants of the day.

*apologetic*

Can anyone please tell me why I can't put different colours and sizes to my fonts in my blog now?! Is it because I betrayed Blogger for Tumblr a few months ago and it's retaliating? It was only a short fling, I swear :(

Sorry, I am making no sense today at all. Sigh.

Well?

2011-01-11T15:19:00.000+08:00

My acoustic guitar. Works for me :D

:(

2011-01-10T14:39:00.003+08:00

I planned to do something useful today, but the universe seems to be conspiring against me.

The mood is not right, the weather is not right, the situation is not right, the energy is not at optimum level. Plus, I have an infection on my left eyelid so that it's swollen almost shut. Having only one working eye makes me feel as sluggish as a...slug.

Elaborating on the infection, I have at least two perks. First, I now know what I look like donning pink eyeshadow, and so I've resolved not to touch the stuff. All without wasting money on trial and error :D

Second, the swelling has formed a double eyelid on my left eye!! Now all I need to do is get the other eyelid infected, then I will have two matching double eyelids whoopee :D

Okay fine, I actually don't mind my natural single eyelids. But there's something very interesting about the weird feeling of a fold in your eye, I always get excited whenever it happens to me (i.e. when I don't get enough sleep/when my eye gets infected).

.________.

On other matters, my third semester of college starts on Wednesday with Principles of Journalism, Media Criticism, and Bahasa Kebangsaan. 3 SUBJECTS ONLY!

Of course, since I didn't take SPM BM, I have to take Bahasa Kebangsaan while those who got more than a C for BM can basically slack this semester with only 2 subjects. I won't grumble about that though. As I always tell myself, I'd definitely prefer to suffer one semester of Bahasa Kebangsaan (in which they probably assume all of us are idiotic and illiterate and won't pressure too much. I hope) as opposed to 2 years of SPM stress.

Suck on that.

Besides, I still have Tuesdays and Thursdays off :) And so I resolve to avoid skipping my classes. No more warning letters kthxbai :) I will be good girl this year.

I think i'm ready to go back to school /game face

And I shall sign off with this:

He's coming back on Friday!! :DD

I'm gonna die this August la, 2 weeks also beh tahan.

How to survive 10 months .____.

Or even better, 5 years. Or more.

Haiyoh. Those damn Canadians.

Mmm, this blog post is probably the most useful thing I'll be doing all day!

2011-01-04T12:28:00.001+08:00

Hehehe.

I did my research, and yes folks, it's true..

2010-12-31T20:28:00.002+08:00

THERE ARE SUCH THINGS AS VEGAN ZOMBIES.

Aaacccckkkkk, who came up with such an abomination?

Zombies are zombies, and they are awesome and eat brains.

Leave 'em alone!

...okay here's a really cute website I found, about Tofu the vegan zombie heh. His brain was accidentally replaced with a piece of cheese by a lab monkey :D

And...that concludes my blog posts for year 2010.

See you all in watchnight service :)

God bless as you spend the next few hours reminiscing! (as I will, heh.)

Last night at JshChn's

2010-12-28T17:51:00.003+08:00

Pretty (shall I say it?) epic! I would say one of the more memorable nights of the year.

Well, we ate food. Lots of food. Mostly various kinds of meat. Very good meat. Nyom yom yom.

And we reminisced. Puchong makes you want to do that :p

Then we went to ta kei for 3 hours, Quake 3 and CS.

Then we went back to his house and watched 2 incredibly dumb and awesome movies: The Hangover, and...wait for it...

MEGA SHARK VS. GIANT OCTOPUS!!!!

Doesn't sound impressive? Well, it was! :D

And just to prove it I will leave you with this jaw-dropping monster scene.

An appropriate moment to pull out my WTF earrings!

I just got back from The Curve. Spent the night with Ying (The Aristocats hehe) and the day shopping with her mom and awkward 13 year old cousin. FINALLY got a checkered shirt (finally) after all these years wanting one and now, I am going to crash.

Baaaaii.

p/s - if you haven't voted for my photo yet, please do! if you have, vote again. and again. and again. i love you so much :) LINK!

Presentss :p

2010-12-26T00:56:00.003+08:00

Sucky pictures because ORAIGHTS harhar I only have my sucky webcam to take pics for me now ha I'm so smart.

OMG earrings from Jireh :P

I'm gonna be walking around with WTF on my earlobes everywhere now.

Little Gods from Kenny :D

(with the MPH vouchers he won for Comp Science Award smart anot.)

Yellow round thing from Kay Ti.

My little sister is truly, awesome :p

And others too. Too lazy to take pics of all of them! But thanks to everyone who was so thoughtful! (I got Domo-kun post-it notes. Say it with me: DOMOKUNPOSTITNOTES.) Some notes made me blush with happiness too heheh :') Oh flattery, y u only come once a year.

How was your Christmas? Mine was so good that it started on the 23rd Dec 2010 and won't end till 2nd January 2011 hah! Yes, I am allowed to do that. Because I am awesome that way.

Of course, everyone agrees Christmas is a wonderful day, probably the best holiday of the year (that's my opinion anyway) but...I always feel extra privileged during this season.

Because I'm not just celebrating a holiday for the sake of it. (Though it's fun!) I have a reason to rejoice. My heart is full of joy this time of year because everything serves to remind me that I'm celebrating the best gift God could possibly give man: Hope. And peace. And light.

If that sounds cheesy, it doesn't matter. It comes from the bottom of my heart, an aching glorious feeling of thankfulness to my Lord :)

Sigh, I didn't mean to start on a rant about the true meaning of Christmas. Whoops!

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Right-o, while I'm still posting, I need to thick-skin a bit and ask a very big favour from YOU -- the amazing person with an amazingly great taste and sense of humour.

...actually it's not really that big a favour cos all you need to do is CLICK THIS LINK :p and vote for my photo. Just click 5 stars. (As often as possible. Again and again. Every few hours. Srzly. *cough)

Yup, believe it or not, I'm jumping on the iTouch bandwagon.

I actually really really want to get the second prize.

Picture this: me sitting at a table with 5 other people. And all of them are playing Fruit Ninja on their iPods. And I'd be twiddling thumbs and not knowing how to start a conversation with anyone because they're talking about Fruit Ninja.

And once in awhile I'll be like, "Can I play Fruit Ninja pls *sparkly eyed*"

And he'd be like, "NOH, ask ___(person on his left)___!"

And then I'd be like, "Oh .___. nvm it's ok."

/hides in a corner to cry

Ok fine I'm exaggerating a little. The above conversation usually only happens with Boon Cheng. Unless I offer him backrubs in exchange for iPod time wtf, then he'll gladly give it to me.

But yes you get the idea. I'm actually quite tired of this scenario (happens in college AND in church helloh) and just want an iTouch. And it'll make a pretty damn good early birthday present to myself! :p

So yup, y'all would be doing me a huge favour just by clicking that fifth star! :D

Ok end of shameless rants.

I am going to clean up my room of its post-Christmas filth and disorder, then going to sleep.

Nighty tighty ;D

Merry Christmas 2010!

2010-12-25T15:22:00.002+08:00

Cool innit! Felt Christmas lights deco! I wanted to do this for my room, but then I realized I have so little time that by the time I finish making them, Christmas would be over :( Oh well, maybe next year.

Speaking of Christmas lights...

I love Coldplay. Enjoy this one :)

Blessed Christmas, everyone.

Gabe Bondoc :)

2010-12-22T12:16:00.004+08:00

*sparkly eyed* <-- I've been doing that a lot these days.

You probably wanna start at 0:40. Enjoyy! :)

Ok now time to go out to buy chicken rice for the family *grumble* This is turning out to be a holiday of errands and grudging outings. So not nice.

S'okay cos I got a proper date tomorrow (ALL MINE. HE'S ALL MINE TOMORROW YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM.) with my boy and thenn, Christmas is on Saturday! Here's to a hopefully non-disappointing next 4 days!

...Why do I sound so perky?

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I has lonely. Does anyone wanna take me out for coffee? ,___,

Hi errone!

2010-12-19T22:40:00.007+08:00

I'm gonna say this up front so you can't say I didn't warn you: I'm back from sleepover and I am mildly depressed and majorly cranky so any following expletives/ranting will not be held against me.

Let me give you a brief overview of my life since November.

Week of final assignments, followed by
Week of final presentations, followed by
2 weeks of final exams, followed by
3 days of sleepover, followed by
Ear infection/flu/fever! :D

So aye indeed, today after second service I finally managed to catch a break and slept. And slept. And slept. And hey, what's that? A fever?

Too little sleep followed by way too much makes a grumpyjen.

Or you know what, it's just the waking up part that makes everything shitty.

And so I have a solution.

Sleep = good.

Waking up = shitty.

In order to omit the shitty part, we need only forget waking up! :)

Yeaaaaaa.

Ok, so sleepover was not bad. I've quite a lot to say about it but really, no mood. It was good, and I was quite pleasantly surprised by...everyone. I think I tend to underestimate people :P Oh crap, I hope nobody important reads this.

And, now I expect to have that Ada Katak song stuck in my head till at least Watchnight. I almost played the song during main sanc worship today :S

Us by the end of 3 days. Perky, perky, perky!

OH YAS and I got my FIRST CHRISTMAS PRESENT of 2010 from Jireh last night! Happiness.

2010-12-15T12:31:00.000+08:00

Let me try to break it down for you.

2010-12-15T12:19:00.002+08:00

(Why are they all guys?)

Lawful Good - Boon Cheng

Neutral Good - Josh Chan

True Neutral - Kenny

Chaotic Neutral - Kay Jen

Neutral Evil - Joseph Lim

Chaotic Evil - Josh Lim and Hui Ying

At least, this is from what I remember.

Actually come to think of it, Ying probably falls under Lawful Evil, but in my head she was all like........whack.

Anyway, I STILL WANT TO KEEL ZOMBIES. L4D L4D L4D.

Behold...Nong Poy

2010-12-14T16:15:00.005+08:00

Before

After.

LFDHBOIPZUDFBDZBF

kVDHLGSudB;OIFGXN

FLBHUDZFBUYSTIHBPO

....I will never get used to lady-boys T_T

Awesome.

2010-12-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

I added links to my sidebar! Finally. For myself mostly though. Cos it's a lot easier to navigate to my favourite blogs through my own. Rather than remembering them off the top of my head, if you know what I mean @_@

Preparations for sleepover are coming along, though more people than I expected signed up. And lots of loose ends to tie up, I'm afraid I might miss out on something crucial, and like, DIE.

Ok no it's never as bad as that. Things will be fine...I hope.

But the faci's are really awesome la :)

Everyone's so willing to work and plan and give ideas...*tears* so touched.

It bothers me that I'm completely chill about Sociology exam. This is not like me at all...or mostly, anyway. I hope my instincts are not misleading me, but I think Sociology will be fine too. It's PR I'm worried about and PR is on Wednesday morning, just before sleepover *wails*

Some more Ms. Su is my lecturer and I will be seeing her next semester for Media Criticism. If i flunk PR then.......

/FOREVER SHAMED

Why have I been feeling so sleepy these two days?

Last night during dinner the adults talk talk talk until 10pm (WTF do you talk about from 6pm-10pm aiyoh!!) and the whole time I just wanted to curl up into a ball and zzz.

Today during lunch at Piccadilly's we talk talk talk until 2pm (WTF did we talk about for so long I have no idea) and I actually fell asleep at the table while listening to everyone else yap hahaha.

Crap, it might be that disease Jireh was telling me about, in which the patient falls asleep involuntarily at really weird times in really weird places *paranoia*

Ok gonna sleep now zzz.

I shall leave with you with this jaw-dropping, astounding, fascinating idea:

Domo-kun Guitar Picks ;)

Rant about...whatevz.

2010-12-11T14:17:00.005+08:00

Miley smoking scandal, or whatevz.
Posting this to my ‘personal’ blog because I genuinely don’t want to cause OMGZ INTERNET DRAMA, nor do I particularly want to converse about it with anyone.
So, Miley Cyrus has been caught on video smoking some kind of legal, hallucinogenic substance with her friends. Everyone on the internet seems to think it’s some kind of massive deal, mainly because everyone on the internet appears to be obsessed with Miley Cyrus anyway.
Here’s what I think - why should anyone care?
What she was doing is clearly legal, and while I certainly don’t condone what she’s doing, I also don’t think it’s my right to comment. I wouldn’t personally do it, but why shouldn’t she? She’s legally an adult now, so what exactly is the issue?
The issue is that y’all have no lives and you want to get your kicks from ‘scandalous’ famous people! Funny thing is, most of the people who’re having a go at her (at least on mydashboard) are the people who spend 60% of their time online reblogging pictures of weed and telling everyone all about their TOTALLY WILD NITEZ BABE! So it’s okay for you to do shit, but not her? Oh, okay!

http://whatabrat.tumblr.com/post/2171115216/miley-smoking-scandal-or-whatevz

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I don't claim to know what others' issues with Miley Cyrus may be, but here's mine.

MY issue is that I have a 10-year-old sister who actually looks up to girls like her, dreams about being famous like her, living like her, being her. My issue lies in the selfishness with which she exploits her fame, disregarding millions of other highly impressionable little girls like my sister, portraying an image which says It's okay to be like me, you should want to be like me.

When you hear me say that Disney should just go back to churning out fairy-tale princesses, note that I'm actually being serious. Yes, rainbows fairies and unicorns are no true representative of Hollywood lifestyle, and Miley Cyrus may be a realistic portrayal of a true, modern-day teenagers.

But I am sick of seeing little girls in hot pants, stilettos, and heavy makeup. I'd honestly rather go back to the days of pink tutus and sparkly tiaras (even though I never participated in them personally, being raised with a bunch of rowdy boys wtf /deprived)

Is this some kind of (effed-up) natural social change, or is the mass media robbing the innocence of little girls intentionally? What is going on here? :/

Yes, I wish and hope to be a better role model to my sister. I know I'm not perfect myself and I do see Kay Ti copying things in me I wish I could change.

But Miley Cyrus certainly isn't making my job any easier =_=

That's her little sister, btw.

Same age as my little sister /cry

Whatevz, right?

Just a thought.

2010-12-11T00:48:00.004+08:00

It's no fun having a healthy self-esteem.

My twisted brain suddenly vomited out this thought - if you have a low self-esteem, if someone compliments you it's a friggin huge deal. But if you're a normal, sane person with a healthy amount of confidence, it shouldn't come as SUCH a huge surprise.

Let me try to explain in, yet another, stupid cartoon :S

...

Do you see where I'm coming from?

Everyone should have a healthy dose of emo.

;)

Giddy up, giddy up, giddy up, it's grand...

2010-12-10T15:06:00.003+08:00

Heheh I love singing along to the Christmas songs I did in choir last year.

I still remember my parts in alto! Happiness.

This video looks like something Eugene would produce. Just sayin'.

IACT CF Christmas party last night went well, I think. I dunno, I tried not to expect too much for fear of disappointment. So I was pleasantly surprised.

It ended up not being very crowded, or noisy, or anything like that. It felt very cosy and...intimate? For lack of a better description. It was pleasant.

I'm really grateful because;

The deco didn't turn out so bad after all :D I loved the hanging fairy lightsss. I want to go get my own now :/
The food, although we had no idea how many people to prepare for, turned out to be just enough. Kate's potato salad was awesome, she cooked 3kg of potatoes and it got snapped up in less than 4 minutes =.=
The light-a-candle event turned out very very pretty.
Nick Lee's kids came, saw, and conquered. The photographers had a field day.
Games, went so much better than I hoped for. Never seen Tian Xiong or Josh conduct a game before, and I'm impressed.
CHIPS AND DIP. Nom nom nom.

Sigh, last night finally put me in the Christmas mood.

...I hope everyone else enjoyed it, though...:S

Haha I realize my blog posts are becoming increasingly durr. Forgot how to blog properly liao. Damn you, Tumblr!

Rant about the life of a grammar nazi

2010-12-06T17:28:00.003+08:00

One of these days, I will probably drop on the floor and flop around courtesy of a ruptured artery or something. I don't know. What do people who suffer from high blood pressure problems do?

Must. Learn. To. Tame. My. Grammar Nazi.

Gooooooosfraba.

Rant about bruno mars

2010-12-04T13:17:00.003+08:00

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Phew, the week's over. Thank God.

Today's the first day in a WEEK I woke up later than 6.30am :'D

I know I should get started on my Sociology work like, now, or I'm going to regret it in the very near future. But urgh, so lazy to do my work now that I'm stuck in this laziness spiral. Life needs to pay me back for what it's been giving me this past week!!

Weili's coming over later then we gonna go Christmas shopping/sleepover. Woohoo more relaxing time :D And Chriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiistmas *shiny eyed* it's in 21 days!! I love these few days leading up to Christmas. Even though it may be bangsmack in the middle of exams...there are so many things to be happy about.

So many things to be happy about ^^

Stresssss effects

2010-12-03T00:39:00.006+08:00

Kenny will be so annoyed when he sees this

but I love doing stupid things to his face.

*pinches cheeks* Cute anot my boy!Heheheh :p

*yawn*

So PR and Sociology presentations are done, PR report done, M'sian Studies 2 reports done, sleepover registration forms and announcements done, VBS just one more day to go and I'm done...

Now I can relax till Saturday. Then need to start on Sociology assignments/studying for exams/organizing makan for CF Christmas party.

Life isn't as bad as it seemed on Monday. That's the thing about stress...you can always look ahead and think, "In 4 days this won't matter as much as it seems now."

I'm rambling.

Point is, I'm just really happy the week's coming to an end.

A rant on puberty education

2010-11-18T16:22:00.004+08:00

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Credit is given where credit is due,

so I'd like to thank whoever came up with this uterus diagram.

Of course, I could've picked any other out of the billion other uterus diagrams on google images, but thanks anyway.

HELLO BLOGGER I'VE MISSED YUH! :'D

My class haz....

2010-10-01T16:12:00.005+08:00

...pink walls.

...orange walls.

My class has photography...class.

(second pic, credits to Kate.)

My class haz...victims of bad manicures.

...and sporters of nice hair colour.

...and also metalheads.

BET JOORS DOZUNT.

Ok, retarded moment over. All pics taken during photography class, mostly by me, excepting that one OF me. There, now we have a post :)

Just a note, it's getting a little tedious to blog in blogger nowadays so while I'm riding this lazy mood I'll be posting in Tumblr and Twitter.

See ya on the dark (by dark i mean personally less explored) side of social media!

10 Things About Growing Up

2010-09-23T22:15:00.004+08:00

1) When I was 2 years old, I lived in Papua New Guinea. The only thing I remember about growing up there was my house helper and babysitter, Maggi. No, really, that was her name.

2) When I was 3 years old, my newborn baby sister passed away. I didn’t understand what was going on, I don’t remember her funeral. But I remember a hospital ward and a tiny mop of curly hair. Her name was Kay Lee.

3) When I was 5 years old, we’d moved house so often that I thought it was yearly ritual to move house, like birds migrating.

4) When I was 7;

“Mummy, is something wrong?”
“What makes you think something is wrong, dear?”
“We’ve lived here for two years already…”

5) When I was 8, I found out what “French kissing” meant. (Slow learner.) I thought it was hilarious and disgusting that two people would want to touch each other’s tongues.

“Muuum, have you ever FRENCH KISSED Daddy?! Eeeewwww.”

6) So you can imagine my reaction when I found out about the birds and the bees at age 10.

7) When I was 13, I met my best friend. We only knew each other for 10 months before she migrated to Canada. Until a month ago, we only contacted each other through long e-mails and two phone calls a year. Even though for awhile I’d lost faith and concluded BFF’s didn’t exist, I still consider Justina one of my closest, dearest friends. :S

8) When I was 14, I decided that the only way to get skinny was to be anorexic. Fortunately, I quickly discovered that it’s impossible to be authentically Malaysian and anorexic, at the same time.

9) When I was 15, I fell in love, started homeschooling, and got my heart broken. In that order.

10) Now I’m 18, studying Mass Communication in college, falling in love, and waiting to get my heart broken next year when he leaves for Canada. In that order. :)

Why does everyone leave me for Canada? :(

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Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
Who are young and alive.
Driving in your car,
I never never want to go home.

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people
And I want to see life.
Driving in your car,
Oh please don't drop me home.

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us,
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die.
And if a ten ton truck
Kills the both of us,
To die by your side,
Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine.

There is a light that never goes out,
There is a light that never goes out.

-The Smiths

Just finished watching 500 Days of Summer. Depressing stuff, but I loved the ending! :D

Poor Tom. I can definitely relate to how he felt about fate and all that x) Sigh.

tag post! clap hands!

2010-09-21T23:16:00.007+08:00

Dear Jireh, I tried to do this. I really did!

But it was too long and really messed up my blog :(

So I deleted it off my blog.

Then I tried to post it on Facebook notes instead.

But it screwed Facebook up too wtf =_= Did not know that was possible.

Sorry. I'll make it up to you!

And I'm very very touched that you called me your first best friend. (BAWWWWWWWW.)

Heh :D

my mirror speaks - deathcab for cutie.

2010-09-16T23:23:00.003+08:00

With every sun that sets I am feeling more

Like a stranger on a foreign shore,

With an eroding beach disappearing from under me.

And when my mirror speaks it never minces words;

That these eyes don't shine half as bright

As they used to do, and they haven't for quite a while.

I always fall in love with an open door,

Or the horizon on an endless sea

As I look around the ones who are standing right in front of me.

And then my mirror speaks with irreverence,

Like a soldier I can't command;

It sees the frightened child in the body of a full-grown man.

it's been more than one year liao.

2010-09-16T15:41:00.000+08:00

I miss my best friend.

september 26, 2009

2010-09-16T03:26:00.006+08:00

You probably don't remember this one :)

That's the Saturday you walked into the lounge to find me bawling my eyes out. Incidentally, I was the Person In Charge of that impact day so I had to juggle between getting everyone else's shit together and falling apart myself fml.

Anyway, you found me bawling my eyes out in the lounge and though I expected you to like, freak out and walk away apologizing profusely for interrupting my own special emo time, you didn't.

Like everything else you take in stride, you just glided in super calmly and sat down expressionless next to me. Not one word, except,

"What's up?"

Um, duh.

But before I knew it, I'd started ranting and raging at you about everything. Telling my side of the story, which I'd kept to myself to save face. And as I verbalized anger and pain that had only been fleeting, intense emotions so far, you listened with a totally straight face.

Then I cried some more. Then you started to talk. Then I forgot what happened but the next thing I remember is staring at Bob the lava lamp and laughing my tear-stained ass off with you about really stupid things...as usual.

I went home that day feeling a little less weighed down, and I clearly remember thinking, "Gah why can't I ever be involved with a nice fella like that one, instead always end up in complicating stuff fml." But I didn't think too much of it at the time because earlier that year you'd told someone exactly this --

"I'll never like Kay Jen like that la, she's too much of a...buddy."

Hahahahahahah.

(And at one point I got super emo about what you said about me being too much of a buddy until Katy Perry's 'One Of The Boys' literally became one of my theme songs, no shit. All cos of you la!)

Anyway fast forward 355 days from that day last September and look where we are now hahah. We always astound me, and I don't think the irony will wear off with another few hundred hours of pondering.

*ponders*

Bleh, anyway. I don't know why I'm writing all this out. I had a teh tarik at like 11pm and then got emo then you ruffled my hair and told me not to think too much so now I'm not thinking just ranting -__-

Oh yah, now I remember why I started this post. I meant to thank you for that day last September, that day when you started caring and turned into like my superhero. Well, one good turn deserves another and now I'm yours la wtf so you got repaid ok.

And since this is a post about you I'm entitled to post a cheesy couple photo and since everybody already saw this weird face photo on your profile I don't mind posting it on my blog cos I actually think it is kind of funny bahahahah.

Ok, you can either mentally blank out this cheesy part or just skip it.

But you can't skip it cos you're reading this!!! So there.

I dunno what I'm saying anymore.

Thank you.

Goodnight :)

there -- A POST!!!

2010-09-15T18:18:00.006+08:00

CanKneez says:

taadaaa

kayjen. says:

*gasp*

*shock*

*chokes*

*die*

CanKneez says:

*faints*

kayjen. says:

=_=

if i died

would you seriously faint?

CanKneez says:

i would be gasping

and stunned

for a long time

and then i'll fail my course

and i'll end up working as a sampah collector

getting minimum wage

and my parents would disown me for being useless

what else?

kayjen. says:

HAHAHAH

i'm totally putting this conversation on my blog!

CanKneez says:

.__.

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So Weili Chan, thank Kenny that I finally have a blog post after donkey ages.

Now someone help me make sure this happens in the event that I do die :P

Btw -- I'm back on Twitter :S

Btw #2 -- I should seriously get a Tumblr account. So I don't feel like I'm plagiarizing whenever I post a picture that's not mine -___-

first time in a cc :S

2010-08-26T23:43:00.005+08:00

1) Josh Chan, Josh Lim, Jeremy Lee, Huiying Chin, Loh Evan, Kenny Kan, Joseph Lim, Ong Kay Jen, and a non-present Jeff Chok. Apparently we are the...Core -___-* Dun pray pray ah.

2) I'm in a land far far away from civilization. Somewhere near where Josh Chan lives. :S

3) We probably wouldn't be in a cybercafe right now if Jeff Chok were here.

4) Josh Lim predicted that I would blog if I EVER entered a cybercafe, therefore I give him the bragging rights of a self-fulfilled prophecy.

5) HOUSE OF THE DEAD!!! AAAAAAHHHH :D

*edit at 2.30pm the following day*

6) I take back everything I said about gaming. CounterStrike at 2.30am is. Pure. Awesomeness.

Buzzed.

raging fail.

2010-08-23T23:01:00.003+08:00

It's hard to rage when somebody else is thrown in your face, equally pissed off.

ONE of us has to be rational and positive, yes?

So, raging fail.

Phew, glad that's over :D

/ashamed

Ok ok here's a silly picture to make up for previous post.

Guess whose shades are fake!! :D

Yes yes I even named the file "silly.jpg" wtf genius me.

According to Justina --

"It's so sad, this is the only way we can camwhore now."

But oh well, imagine if they hadn't invented webcam /horror.

Well, other side of the globe or not, the old saying holds true...

And please for goodness' sake I hope nobody clicks and enlarges to read our conversation. Inquisitive, inquisitive, tsk tsk.

2010-08-23T20:59:00.006+08:00

FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHH.

lay awake at night
cry,
you know it's not alright
to feel like you're falling into nothing
you can learn to fly
just call his name, just call his name

He Is We, very nice band.

Now please just go jump off a bridge cos I am just DAMN LAZY TO LAYAN YOU.

ARGH.

mooooooodswings and belly buttons.

2010-08-23T01:47:00.006+08:00

I have been moodswinging like crazy these few days and YES, I do blame my hormones. I know this for a fact because it only started when Aunty Flo (as some call it) (I find it hilarious terminology) came along. Distress signals blared. A warning button appeared on my tummy. Beep beep beep.

Not nice :( but more so for the people around me than for myself. Boy has had to deal with my crazy moodswings all week but he's been doing a good job...really. He feeds me ice cream and then patiently explains to me that one sundae cone really doesn't make me marginally more hideous, and NO, I'm not fat either (liar) so no more complaining about myself, okay?

Then there's Mom and Kay Ti, who should empathize with me but don't. Or they do, but not enough to make allowances. :P

And I also say a lot of weird things to the wrong people at the wrong time. So if you catch me saying something truly...awkward...please remember this is just a phase :D

Okay, this is actually just an apology/explanatory/ranting post. I'm sorry if I freaked anyone out and I am trying my hardest to keep it under control.

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Quick updates :

ONE

I slept at 9pm on Saturday night and woke up at 7am Sunday. The longest, most deep sleep I've had in...well, years, possibly. So why is it I ended up with a raging headache all Sunday?

Is it possible to get a migraine from too much sleep? :S

TWO

Last Wednesday, I went Ramadan-bazaar hunting with Jireh (who still insists I'm his best friend) (mental jen : YAY). I drove his car (!), we food hunted for an hour, then we pigged out in his car while catching up. Considering I hadn't seen him in about a month before that, I was quite, very, satisfied. Yup :)

Oh, the Ramadan spirit. Food really brings people together.

THREE

This Wednesday, I will probably be paying a visit to the netballers. Time to find out how bad my stamina has gone since April! *rolls up sleeves*

FOUR

I'm loving my new lipbalm, Blackberry Buttercream. I truly think it's got drugs in it because putting it on makes me happy like putting candy on my lips. Om nom nom.

FIVE

We're leaving for Bangkok on Saturday afternoon. Dad, Kay Ti, and I are excited about the trip, Mom and Kokor choose to be wet blankets :( But honestly I think Dad and I are happy because a vacation is just what we need right now. Kay Ti...well, any holiday that involves swimming pools and shopping will do for her.

SIX

I just want some time out to BREATHE. But when I get my time out, I get restless and want something to DO.

There's the moods kicking in again :S

SEVEN

I realize that everytime boy drops me off home, I spend at least 7 minutes refusing to budge, listing off all the reasons I shouldn't get off. and why we should just run away and build a big plastic bubble to live in. He laughs and kisses my nose and calls me weird, then I poke his belly button wtf.

Okay, I guess I am just...spoilt -___-

And that's it for the night, folks, a very colourful post to match my mood(s)!

Go sleepy bai. Go go go.

of nomning plastic, photoshop, and dudes with pretty rings.

2010-08-19T20:21:00.010+08:00

Rifdy : So what do you usually eat in Canada?

Avey : Oh, lots of things. Chinese, Indian, Japanese, Western, Italian. On Thursdays we usually go downtown to our favourite restaurant to eat Korean.

Kay Jen : WHAT, you eat Koreans?! *only heard the last part as usual wtf*

Rifdy : Hahahah. Probably not very tasty, considering all the...

All 3 of us : ...plastic. Bahahahahahahahah.

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Pls don't be offendeddd.

Thing is, I just have trouble believing all those K-pop stars look like this...

...in the natural realm.

What? Am I dissing plastic surgery?

Uh, yeah. I am ^_^

But then again, this is coming from a girl who doesn't even believe in retouching her own photos.

And not because I are teh noobs ok. I have had more than enough experience retouching photos of ugly people from Computer Graphics classes ugh =_=

I just think that this is a little extreme.

Therefore I have decided to take this opinion to obnoxious heights by refusing to retouch any of my photos. And now you know that my constant complaints of how unphotogenic I am are legit! :)

(I call myself sadly unphotogenic in the hopes that I don't actually look like that in real life /horrified)

Oops, I think I just dissed plastic surgery and Photoshop :X

Meh...

Y'all should just be like me nyahahahah.

Bear in mind that this was written with a sense of humour la k.

I'm not really that obnoxious.

I think.

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Ahem. Anyway, I met up with Aveline and Rifdy today. 3 of us used to be best friends in Std 6. Avey has since moved to Canada and Rif is in...HELP. Hah.

We're grown up now and very different, but it was nice to catch up with them.

And...Aveline got me this :DD

Yay!

Even though I don't usually wear rings, isn't it pretty? :B And I am a real sucker for pretty things. Even if I am a DUDE =_=" not in my own words. LEONARD. *cough*

And of course, I managed to squeeze in a bit of shopping today too. All I can say is retail therapy WORKS. I haven't felt so satisfied with myself in a looong time wtf.

No no no, I am not shallow.

...nevermind.

Enough talk for the night. Signing off now to finish my stupid InDesign assignment :/ Rawr finish exams also must worry about Computer Graphics rawr rawr. I realize CG is the one and only subject I complain about.

Thank God I won't have to take it again next semester! /relief

But then I have to take photography next semester!! /horror

Ok bai :B

akakakaka~

2010-08-18T03:35:00.003+08:00

om nom nom HEAD.

Secret : I always feel especially pretty around you :)

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EXAMS

ARE

OVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

But my college admin could seriously work on a little bit of tact .___.

Picture this : your final final exam finishes, you hand in your papers and extend your arms and mouth in order to yell in delight. It's over! Freeeeeedom!

Then SUDDENLY! They pass you a sheet of paper, a love letter from the office stating that Semester 2 starts on September 1 WTF. When they mentioned before that it starts on Sept 20 WTF.

If you count our stupiddddd Comp Graphics tutorials from semester 1, we literally don't have ANY semester break at all wtffff.

*freedom drains out of imagination*

Pissed >:(

On the bright side, no morning classes in Sem 2!

HALLELUJAH~

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Anyway, CG tutorials or not, I'm gonna celebrate my restricted freedom with friends, movies, dates, sleeping in, and SHOPPING! Baaaaaaangkok, here I come!

Cannot wait lor. First trip to Bangkok ever lor. (I know I'm lagging lor but damn excited lor.)

The only problem with the trip is that we're going in the end of August (so missing first few Sem 2 classes -- SUCK ON THAT, IACT admin! akakaka) which is when the M'sian mega sales ends. Till then, the dilemma is whether to spend now and regret later, or tahannnn now and be a happy girl later.

Haih :(

Is it really worth it to tahan? I dunno also.

---

I'm starting to develop a real fondness for:-

1) Sunday afternoons

2) Tuesday nights ^_^

Ok bai.

chills

2010-08-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

now you know i'm just looking for an excuse to procrastinate.

2010-08-16T21:22:00.001+08:00

But come on -- facebook in pirate?

"why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord'

2010-08-15T19:39:00.001+08:00

and do not do what I say?"

forgiveness

2010-08-14T22:19:00.003+08:00

is a choice.

It's gritting your teeth

Letting it go

Leaving justifying to God

Smiling when you feel like scowling

Treating an inhuman like a loved one because

You're not that perfect either.

It's forcing yourself to stay too busy to be bitter

Leaving the ranting to moments when you're alone with God

Learning to laugh at mistakes that have caused plenty of grief

Suppressing that wild urge to do some unspeakable damage to his/her property.

Forgiveness.

It seems incredibly superficial to me sometimes.

And boy, does it sap a lot of energy.

Sometimes I really wish just giving up were an option.

---

Guh. Whatever. I want a kitty cat :(

---

kayjen. says:

@_@

sorry

i had like 7 other conversations going on

you never bother nudging ME also

jeremy says:

I didn't know!

I thought you gave up on me

And

I had 9 other convos open plus I was monitoring football scores

kayjen. says:

well, *I* was playing cube crash and blogging!

i win

jeremy says:

You can't proclaim yourself the winner

That's cheating

Ps I want a mention in your blog!!!

I wanna be faaaaaamouuuusss

Jeremy Lee Boon Cheng. You damn thick skin.

Here's your mention :D

time for some domo!

2010-08-09T03:00:00.004+08:00

GIMMEH!!!

Uh.

Okay goodnight :D

and all my sandcastles spend their time collapsing.

2010-08-08T17:21:00.004+08:00

So I figured why I get tired out so easily.

I put a lot of energy into being myself -___-

Not a lot of verbal vomit on this blog nowadays. I apologize deeply and truly to whichever anonymous person(s) might be reading this, on presumption that I still do get readers :(

Words, conversation, and the general motivation to remain socially active is coming harder these days. That's not an excuse for anti-social behavior (or maybe it is) but do be positive -- this mood, too, shall pass.

I hope.

hahahahahah.

2010-08-05T01:11:00.005+08:00

I flatter myself that we're the oddest pair I've ever seen.

Bottom left photo is like :I literally.

Okay, goodnight :)

2010-07-29T15:13:00.000+08:00

Just because I can't use this for my photoshop assignment :D

Wheeeee.

dear weili,

2010-07-26T23:52:00.001+08:00

HOW ARE YOU? :D

rrriiiipppp.

2010-07-25T23:17:00.003+08:00

Painful, very painful, ow ow ouch.

So early already ah got heart pain :(

No no must not dwell on it. Must not be pessimistic, ok?

The PRESENT, not the past, and not the future. Not yet.

Heart pain T_T

Haih I'm very stupid la >:(

---

Nah. Meet Sparkly :(

(The Unicorn of Flaming Death)

Don't play play!

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight.
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright.
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me?

Strong Enough, Stacie Orrico.

2010-07-23T02:26:00.005+08:00

As I rest against this cold hard wall, will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won,
Only to find the war had just begun.

Will my weakness fall and and now make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again?
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough
To take one chance with me?
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into His hands,
And turned it all around.
In my most desperate circumstance, is where I've finally found

That You are strong enough,
That You are pure enough,
To break me, pour me out and start again.
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again.

Edward Cullen!

2010-07-19T16:12:00.002+08:00

-credits to (leonard's friend) hannah wong . =)

some people make it so easy.

2010-07-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

And the sad thing is, it's true :(

---

Last night, the bunch of us -- Ying, Boon Cheng, Jeff, Evan, Kenny -- managed to successfully pull off playing grown up :)

From grocery shopping (arguing over quality and quantity) to cooking (arguing about taste, texture, and not enough meat) to serving (arguing over which table to sit at) to eating (arguing about what grown ups do and do not talk about)........well, we did quite well, considering.

The pasta turned out quite nice and the drinks were to die for, yum yum.

Nobody got maimed, burned, or permanently scarred.

The house and my pots and pans are more or less in one piece.

Jeff was pretty impressed, too! :D (and he remembered how to chop onions!)

And very importantly!

Ying

and

SCORED!

Boys who cook; we're happy just setting the table/doing dishes :D

In the end we discovered...cooking may be a hassle (try grocery shopping with Boon Cheng, aaaarrrrrgggghhhh) but it is quite fun, and a heck load cheaper than going out :D And it was an...experience.

So next up, pork burgers at Kenny's!

(Am I being too optimistic?)

for loh eugene

2010-07-16T17:29:00.005+08:00

...Who hates chavs and got first class honours, making me very very proud.

Haw haw, betcha dunno which one I'm talking about :D

Oh yay, font size dis-retarded themselves.

what happened to my fonts?!

2010-07-16T17:26:00.002+08:00

Hmmm I dunno why my font size so retarded.

Well I'm always getting complaints about how my fonts are tiny so maybe you will be happy now.

I still hate the inconsistency though >:(

paulocto!

2010-07-16T17:16:00.003+08:00

Theory on how Paul Octopus started predicting football games in the first place :/

Kenny Kan : Well...maybe because... they were bored and they had an octopus floating in the tank... so why not ask it to predict which football team would win.. =D

27 minutes ago . Like

=_= An "octopus floating in the tank"...

It's been said before, but I do wholeheartedly agree that Paul the Octopus emerged from the World Cup as the biggest winner.

How many other football players can say they have a Facebook AND iPhone app created just for them after the WC? :P EVEN though I can name more than a few people who want to make takoyaki out of the poor fella.

Sigh it really is funny how easily amused we are. You mix the wonders of marine life with the World Cup and you get a worldwide sensation out of a poor baby octopus.

But you do have to admit...

He really is pretty darn cute la :DD

Anyway, World Cup's over -- thank goodness -- and I no longer have to pretend to know what's going when everybody talks about it. Which they did, incessantly for a month, oh the horror.

It's not fun to be out of the loop, but even then I'm just too lazy to follow it :( Football is probably the one sport that will never interest me. Why can't everyone be equally hyped about, IDK, basketball? Or ping pong? (Think Balls of Fury...HAH!) Or even better, netball :P Something that doesn't consist of 22 men in short shorts chasing a ball around a big ass field only to score 3 goals within a time frame of 90 minutes.

You know, something............faster.

Ok, I'd better stop dissing the game now if not later certain people will crucify me.

---

The whole week has been a blur of assignments, sleepless nights, and last-minute panic. I think the kiasu-ness of my class is affecting me to be a bit more kiasu than I usually am, or maybe I just really like to bitch things out of my system more than most other people.

On Wednesday I cracked and asked boy to take my mind off things, which he readily did even though it was straight after college and he was already zonked out. We drove around a bit, not knowing where to go, while I ranted and bitched and he stoned, then we ended up in 1 Utama -___- Walked and walked and walked until we talked me back into my Happy Zone...and all the while he was secretly dying for a shower and a nap. And he got me this...

"It's about time I got you something you can't possibly lose..."
/hangs head in shame

With my name on it HAHAH *fascinated*

Yes yes yes I'm a sucker for gifts and special time and attention /materialistic.

But it was really very sweet of him to layan me like that *manja* :) wtf I better stop now if not you will get diabetes.

Apart from that highlight...I guess I'm fairly satisfied with the work produced this week...fairly. Could have been better, but it was alright...guh. "Alright" -- I don't like that word :( Sometimes I think I'm just a really bad case of mediocrity and I'm NEVER above average no matter how hard I try T_T

Gah well, who cares, the week is finally over! Today is Friday and Fridays are my Sabbath days, and I have never before felt SO relieved to get a break (maybe cos before this I never really put much work into the other 6 days of the week so Fridays were no difference wtf).

I woke up at 9.30am, made breakfast, read a book, ate lunch, read another book, went online to finish The Portrait of Dorian Gray (so poor I can't afford to buy the book HAHA) and then got hooked on the wonderful world wide web ._.

Ah, bliss. Bumming around is so nice if not prolonged :)

Dorian Gray is a very creepy story :S The thrills and chills effect would've been much nicer if I'd read it in print though, but beggars =/= choosers.

But seriously TGIF, I actually have the time to read it in the first place.

---

I have really not much else to say.
Hope y'all have a very good weekend (cos I know I will fo'sure!)

And please sign up for CUG camp by Sunday if you haven't already :)

Much love,
Jen.

turn around.

2010-07-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

Today...was a good day, after all. =)

Your layan-ing REALLY means a lot to me D: thanks for turning my frown 100% upside down :))

Ah shucks, my boyfriend spoils me -_-

of deep sea creatures and annoying 5-year-olds.

2010-07-11T17:42:00.004+08:00

"I prefer hanging out with A lah. With B it's just so tense."

"Yeah...I understand."

"I mean...A is just such a...a...hmm..."

"A himbo? -____-"

"O.o I was going to say a happy-go-lucky, carefree person...

...but come to think of it, himbo works too."

Hahah hear that, A? You're such a himbo :)

Weili sleeptalks. For the first time ever, someone sleep talked loud enough for me to wake up in SHOCK. "WOIH. *grunt* NOHH. I said NO! *growl*"

Ganas O_O

If it doesn't break your heart, it isn't love.

If it doesn't break your heart, it's not enough.

It's when you're breaking down with your insides coming out,

That's when you find out what your heart is made of.

--Yet, Switchfoot

:b

2010-07-09T18:54:00.002+08:00

"Look, Mom!! The Eye of Sauron livessss...on my banana!"

"...who in the world is Sauron?"

Ha.

2010-07-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

FML.

Bleagh.

2010-07-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

It really...really grosses me out how some certain kinds of girls magically cease to possess any power of original thought, in the presence of some certain kinds of boys.

Like...lolwut.

Okay, okay. 2 years to go, I can't afford to start writing people off now.

Judgmental attitude begone!

lazy jen.

2010-06-30T15:49:00.003+08:00

Yah, that's...pretty much me, right now :(

I am supposed to be in Computer Graphics class right now but decided to skip. Thanks to a lovely migraine that's impairing my ability to do anything in front of a computer but stare at the screen, slowly morph into a solid block of calcium...and blog. Hahahahahah double standards wtf.

No lah blogging is kind of a relief right now. Rather than keeping all my whines and complaints pent up ~~because my whine wall is somewhere in penang nao and i don't wanna kacau his holiday~~ I return to blogger! Hi blogger. I love you dear blogger. Even though I only talk to you when I want to rant real sorry wtf schizo moment again.

---

NUMBER ONE! I don't understand why most drama I see around me seem to come from...church ppl. Not MY church friends specifically lah, although got, but church ppl in general. WHY? We share the same beliefs, have known each other so long (think nappies!) that we're practically related, take up at least 28.5% of each other's lives, yet we cannot get along. I doo not underztang. Ok nvm, maybe I just answered my own question haih i.e. sick of each other.

Boo hoo.

NUMBER TWO! I have discovered that even after being given 18 years to mature, I still have a problem with...authority -__- Not being a rebel here! Just something about...uniforms, and the condescension of age, and the panic of doing something wrong, and the knowledge that if everyone would just LISTEN TO ME, I could fo'sure bullshit my way out of trouble. But authority doesn't listen. Therefore I get frustrated. Therefore I sound like I'm trying to pick a fight (ok admittedly I usually am wtf) and that just doesn't sit well with authority.

Then I get into more trouble than I was supposed to in the first place. FML.

Luckily I have a very calm boyfriend who knows how to handle people who are not his parents ahahaha jk well. Trouble neutralized! Very balanced our relationship. Social retard and active peacemaker. Veli good! *thumbs up*

Stillll, why do policemen have to be so scary? :(

NUMBER THREE! Knowing is one movie that makes me NEVER want to step into another train or airplane, ever again. And it's really funny how fragile humans are, huh? We're so tiny and it takes so little to just, you know, annihilate us O_O Like ants. Under a magnifying glass.

That's a terrible metaphor.

Knowing is a stupid movie nonetheless.

Bah you will not deny me my rights to happy endings!

And ohmygoodness, will someone please stop Nicolas Cage from making movies already?

NUMBER FOUR! It's real funny how angry I was, now that I think of it. For so long, too! I'm a huge advocate of keeping things in perspective, so I'm surprised I allowed myself to be so mad, hahah. Things are cool now, I suppose. I just don't like the fact that you can be so bitter and whiney behind my back, yet to my face you try so darn hard to win my approval.

But it's okay la. It proves nothing to me, but that you're just ashamed that you gave me the power to ruin your life (in your words.)

I are Kay Jen, warrior princess.

You don't mess with the warrior princess.

Hear me roar!!

;)

NUMBER FIVE! General rants :)

-I really need to lose some weight /blush

-I miss my long(er) hair :( Especially my fringe. It's all...gone. I know how Leonard feels about keeping long hair to protect his forehead now wtf I swear my pimple occurence has increased fourfold ever since my fringe got mercilessly razed off :(

-I miss Zane. And Melanie. And Stephyduck. A lot. These three people come to mind when I think of top 3 ppl I should really catch up with.

---

Check out the front page of today's newspaper! The Star I mean. A picture of a guy in tears because he has to give his pet hornbill back to the govt :(

The sadistic, detached side of me thinks it's a really cute and amusing story. But the animal lover in me cries out in empathy for the poor fella.

But it's for ol' Hornbill's own good ya. Kesian~

Heheh ok I'm done. Out!

*edit*

Remember what I said about wanting to reinvent myself?

I still want to.

Like, move far faaaar away and change myself.

Be whoever/whatever I want to be without fear of shocking anyone out of their socks (too much)

I still want to.

But now I have much more to lose than I did last time I said this.

That's not altogether a bad thing :D

;)

2010-06-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

Mm hmm.

woot!

2010-06-29T22:25:00.001+08:00

"Jim, does this sparkly sash make me look fat?"

2010-06-24T04:44:00.003+08:00

There are so many things I want to say but don't know how.

It's not often that words escape me -- I'm usually quite good at describing my feelings.

(Explains the very feelings-oriented blog @_@)

And it's not like falling in love is a completely new experience for me -- so why do I find it so hard to put it into...words?

(Explains the lack of updates @_@)

Every time I try to say what I mean and explain what I feel, it just comes out really cliche and stale. Then it's back to delete, refresh, frustration.

I wish I could find a fresh way to say thank you for everything, for being there, for just being you. A special way to make you understand how much you mean to me, how much space in my heart and mind you constantly occupy.

Yeah, it frustrates me to no end that I have nothing new or special to offer you.

I guess the best thing to do is just say what I'm feeling in the core of my soul, and it simply is : Thank you, Kenny, for everything, and you mean so much to me.

Yep. That's about as honest as honest gets :S

Bubblessss :D

Mm hmm, so here's to the last 4 (or 7? :S) months..

Not long, but there's more to come :)

I've had a great day :D

hola!

2010-06-22T05:57:00.007+08:00

5.57am :DDD

Thank you, Advertising Principles, for keeping me up, and letting me have a whopping 3 hours of sleep in the past 48. I love you I love you I love you. Hee.

I think I'm a little bit crazy on lack of sleep, and coffee. Well, not like we've never been there before.

Supposed to be doing an essay now (i won't say whose, ho ho ho!) but...I'm hungry. I'm hungry and there's nothing raidable in the fridge so I shall sit here and type and sulk and type some more. Oh, and every time I try to write something everything comes out too personal so screw the essay -- blog's my other resort. Hello, blog. I love you, blog. Even though I don't talk to you much nowadays real sorry wtf schizophrenic moment here.

I think I'm at a pretty comfortable place right now. The idea of college is just starting to settle in my tummy and -- okay, I take a very long time to feel comfortable around a new social group -- I feel like my friends are friends and not just acquaintances. So despite the fact that I do have some quirks, I can get along with people and I'm totally relieved to find out it's not a homeschooler thing.

A homeschooler thing. Hahah. I missed that phrase.

I've discovered in the past few weeks that one of the little joys in my life is eating a sundae cone with a spoon. I like it. The feeling lah. I like it as much as I like eating mashed potatoes in Popeye's with a spork. It feels very right. Like, right-er than eating ice cream with my tongue, or mashed potatoes with a spoon. You know?

I also discovered not 3 hours ago that I enjoy webcamming with Boy after not seeing him alllllll weekend :( (church doesn't count, because I'm always busy in church with something or the other -_-) So yes, happy, get to see his face, feel like I'm paid a lil attention (hoho I'm greedy like that D:), talk face-to-face (sorta), and at the same time play with all the cute little effects in my webcam hahahahah sampat betul.

SPEAKING OF WHICH!

This is Leonard.

He likes taking pictures of himself :/

I just like kissing myself :D

Leo : If I had a gig at The Laundry, would you come?

Kayjen : Waddaheck why dream so small, Laundry only? Aim higher a bit la kan!

Leo : Er ok...The Library? It's one floor higher than Laundry :DD

Kayjen : =_=

Leo : Ok ok how about this. ONE DAY I shall open for Mayday Parade.

Kayjen : HAHAHAH no la one day Mayday Parade will open for you wtf!

...yeah, you can kinda tell why we get along.

He has 4 abs he collectively calls Blue.

ONE DAY he swears he will upgrade to Linkin Park.

(6 of them geddit? OMG.)

---

So, just yesterday, my Dad gave me this riddle :

Q : "What turns from green to red with the press of a button?"

A : A frog in a blender wtf.

True story.

Ok enough for your brains.

Goodnight! :D

*edit*

Eh it's 6.41am already!

let's have a grin.

2010-06-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

It's the 666th post! D:

---

I want more time.

More TIME.

Silly me. I've always known there'd be a bottle cap to this happiness.

Silly me. I'd have taken the chance anyway.

---

RAWR I like The Ting Tings :)

They remind me of Melanie and Trina and how Trina used to call Mel, Ms Thing.

"HI THERE, YOU THING!"

Heheheheh. 2008 was a good year :)

Nyahahah.

2010-06-18T02:43:00.001+08:00

٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶

Ngrawr! - is pronounced "Ng Grow Ar" according to Kay Ti x)

heh.

2010-06-15T01:56:00.002+08:00

Everybody should have a chance to be this happy at least once in this lifetime.

Sadly, not everybody has someone, someone like you.

Colon-Capital D!

so there are such things as perfect moments.

2010-06-14T01:18:00.005+08:00

I had an amazing night.

Kenny was gorgeous.

I wore a dress.

The food was yummers.

I met his friends.

I liked his friends x)

Josh Chan danced.

Yeah, prom was pretty darn awesome.

Goodnight, World. :)

6.47am :)

2010-06-13T06:47:00.003+08:00

I gave up on sleeping at around 5.30am. Just been spending the morning reading, bumming around, praying, and generally enjoying the silence.

Early morning. I don't think I've been up so early and enjoyed it since my days in SMK BUD2. I've forgotten how much I love this time of the day, despite my not being a morning person at all.

There's just something so still and sweet in these hours before light. The only evidence of life seems to be in the chill and the chirping birds (whom I don't hear at any other time of the day fml). The day's not yet old enough to be marred by events or emotions; so full of possibility. And hope. And the trust that as I keep looking to God, I will be a better person today than I was yesterday, for His sake.

I should wake up at this time more often. Though I know fo' sure I'll pay for this later with larger-than-life eyebags :/

The sky just turned from ink to milky grey.

Good morning, World.

2010-06-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

Everything. Is. Stained.

Tainted.

And I'm so sick and tired of trying to clean it up and make it perfect.

things we do in college.

2010-06-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

During breaks anyway :)

The guy on the left is Leonard. He's a camwhore, 'nuff said.

Boy on the right is Tian Xiong, AKA Fido

(because he looks like the 7-Up guy! RIGHT?)

I have no idea what possessed Fido to pose with Leo :/

Josh's flaming eyeballs.

Alienzzz =D

"Look, we can make flaming fingers if we move them really really fast!"

"Coooooool."

Yes, Leonard, those are Chris' shades :)

Well, huzzah for a productive day in class!

Need a laugh? Knock yourself out.

2010-06-06T18:34:00.003+08:00

I want to go for Impact Camp! >:(

It has just hit me that this will be the first time since 2004 that I'm missing Impact Camp why am I so old. Mebbe I have issues letting go. But I want to go as a facilitator la :( And it's up in Cameron Highlands! Sweet, sweet, cool weather! I want you!

Instead I will be stuck here in PJ while everyone goes off tomorrow, with college and responsibilities and hot weather and whatnot. Tomorrow will be so depressing.

*mopes in a corner

Oh well...there's CUG camp next month. AND Sue Zen is homee :))

Rant over!

One more thing.

Boy is now a Chinese gangster hohoho! :D

(Only need a piercing to complete the look wtf! :D)

No, I'm kidding.

I finally watched Iron Man last night. Now to watch Iron Man 2 wtf I am so outdated. Haven't watched a movie since Ip Man 2 and that was a month ago *cry

Bai every buddy =)

beeburgers for lunch!

2010-06-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

Bzzzzzzzzt.

I'm not who you think I am.

i suck at photoshop.

2010-06-02T23:49:00.002+08:00

Really, really, really suck at it.

But today was one of the most productive Computer Graphic lessons we've ever had, YAY. Also, I'm happy that our Mass Comm project is over and done with, with no real FATAL mistake and whatnot. We're still alive, whoopee :D

Now onto Creative Thinking and English assignments! No more worries for the week!

See? It doesn't take a lot to make me happy. :)

(But it doesn't take a lot to make me sad either. Screw karma.)

BAAAAIII~

let the picture do the talking -_-

2010-05-31T00:48:00.003+08:00

*edit*

Thoughts at 2am.

I slept from 1.30 to 6 yesterday afternoon. Explains why I'm still fully, bouncin' bonkers, wide awake right now. On the bright side, late night equals peace and quiet, equals getting some actual work done. I'm as happy as a pineapple, whoopee.

I should work on my facial expressions because nobody can differentiate between my sarcastic statements and my serious ones. And that can get pretty inconvenient, as people are becoming hypersensitive. Terasa damn easily. Not discounting myself lah. I'm guilty of all the crimes I see in others. Pffbt.

The Big Bang Theory rocks! Thank you very much David Everns Lim for http://www.cucirca.com/2009/06/27/watch-the-big-bang-theory-online/ :) Hee. Sheldon is my new superhero.

I really wish I could go for Impact camp :/ Damn you, college life and your irregular schedules and breaks! D:

Panic attacks over the weekend. 4 in total. One for the past, one for the immediate future, and two for the distant future. I'm not proud to say that I dealt with them in a really cowardly way -- by doping myself on flu meds and sleeping at least 9 hours more than necessary in total. But I don't like it, don't like the idea of just facing up to it. Sleep is disturbed, but an easier alternative.

Am I mad?

Let me share something totally irrelephant with you. I don't like it when I'm stressing out over something, and when I ask people for help, they take a split-second glance at my work, roll their eyes and go, "Gosh, it's so easy."

Well, if it were frickin' easy I wouldn't be asking for your help, RIGHT? I think it's a homeschooler's reaction. We don't learn the same things so people think that it's easier than govt school work, so they write us ALL off as rich kids with learning disabilities. Naturally, I'd get defensive. And it's stuck with me till now, even in IACT.

Well, I'm sorry I'm too stupid to be conventionally educated. *gives you raspberry* pppphhhllllbbtt.

Okay, okay, I'm raging again and it sounds like I had a really bad few days. No, it's not true. My weekend was actually rather enjoyable. I'd expound on that statement but it's hard to find a lot to say about good things, you know? They just...are.

Neutral things can be discussed in a curious but detached manner. Bad things can be elaborated on and on until the bitter taste is washed out, and subsequently turned into a joke. But good things...good things can potentially be spoilt with overdescription. Use the wrong words (and this is often the case) and the entire memory of the experience is marred in even a little way.

I therefore propose that my blog is damn angsty because I don't feel the need to pen down pleasant experiences in order to validate them.

Okay, my brain's in overdrive right now and I'll harvest this energy to get some work done. Goodbye and have a pleasant week, folks.

frustration.

2010-05-28T13:50:00.003+08:00

I want to own every right to be a spoilt, demanding, temperamental, selfish bitch.

I hate it when the days I need you most coincide with the days you, ever so rationally and understandably, cannot be there. I can't even argue.

>:(

Someone needs to drag me kicking and screaming out of the inside of my own head.

i'm tired :(

2010-05-26T22:15:00.004+08:00

It's one of those days when you want to dig a hole and hide in it for a billion years. Lunch perked me up more than a little bit, but having to ditch boy for Computer Graphics after...that was even more depressing than before. And don't get me started on CG classes. I'm at my wit's end with it; I STILL can't keep up.

The only good thing I got from it was Plants vs. Zombies.

Zombieeeeee...

Want to know a secret?

I really want to be all skinny and perfect, ha-ha. No, I'm serious.

I feel like crap. Today.

we go through this everytime -_-

2010-05-24T12:27:00.003+08:00

"Kay Jen." "Mmm." "Kay Jen." "Whut." "I gotta send you home now." "No...you don't..." "Your parents will kill me.."

Sighs. I sit up. He kisses me. Fifteen minutes are lost.

*Fifteen minutes later*

"Kay Jen." "Mmm." "I gotta send you home..." "No, you don't..."

Here we go again.

I had a nightmare.

You were going away.

You were never coming back.

I wish it were just a nightmare.

HEE.

It's damn ugly but so cute right? Ho. Ho ho. HO :D

Thank you for 3 months, 6 months, whatever :)

best-case scenario.

2010-05-21T11:38:00.005+08:00

Right now, where I really want to be is snuggled up in a big, soft armchair in a cool, quiet library with munchables on standby, reading a never-ending storybook.

...

Instead I'm stuck here in this stroke-inducing weather, hovering over my already overused laptop, watching Ouran High School Host Club on youtube =_=

*dreams of a perfect, college-less day shatters*

Sigh. But yeah. Y'all should watch Ouran if you're bored like me and looking for dumb entertainment. :( What a beginning for my weekend.

Psychedelic.

2010-05-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

Knock yourselves out.

thought i taw a puttytat.

2010-05-19T12:21:00.002+08:00

I diiid, I did tee a puttytat!

Thanks for reminding me, Eric Lee :D

Sigh I want a kitten. They are so edible D: I mean that in a good way. I miss Tom Yam, even though it's been 6 years.

---

Bimbo time!

I realize I'm quite a picky eater in the morning. It's probably because I'm grumpiest in the morning so everything seems to be nasty for muh tum-tums. But really, don't you think a lot of things seem to be especially unappealing in the morning?

I can't eat spicy food in the morning, unless I'm begging for diarrhea.

I can't drink cold water, hot water, or lukewarm water in the morning. It tastes funny D:

I can't eat durian in the morning, but ANY other part of the day is just fine :DD

I can't consume overnight food in the morning.

I can't consume cold food or drink in the morning.

I can't drink gassy drinks in the morning.

I can't eat vegetarian food (i.e. banana leaf rice T_T) in the morning.

@_@ see? They're all so yech in the morning!

But one breakfast snack that can NEVER go wrong is Honey Stars. Yes I am fatty bom bom. I love Honey Stars. They're my quick fix - pop some in your mouth and riiiide on the waves of sugary-good endorphins~

Mmm. I like endorphins.

[/bimbo]

---

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow.

Your skin,
Oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful.
D'you know for you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.

Yellow by Coldplay.

---

I hate sunburns. My nose is peeling like nobody's business and it's not funneh.

K that's pretty much all I have to say on this fine fine afternoon, 2 hours before Computer Graphics class (someone choke me nao). Time to start on my English assignment so I have one less thing to worry about it a month from now, whee!

Bai :(

Slow dancing to no music, the only kiss that ever made shivers run down my back. Is something wrong with me? Every minute with you is too precious for adjectives.

Of hermaphrodites...again.

2010-05-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

*During CUG Bible discussion*

Shen Yen : Waaait. What do you call...that creature...with both gender parts?

Kay Jen : A...hermaphrodite?

Boon Cheng : TADPOLE!!!

Told you I'd post it. x)

durex survey :)

2010-05-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

Americans have sex 118 times a year, below the average of 127.

Eastern Europeans have sex an average 150 times a year. The countries with the lowest sex frequencies are Sweden (102), Malaysia (100), and Singapore (96). This is according to the Durex survey.
(source)

Wow. Malaysia, buck up.

Reblogged from Trina's tumblr :DD

kayjen. says:
i laughed so hard reading this XDDD

*:razik:* says:
hahaha
no la we are just cheap
we like babies

Oh, my entertainment :D

You make me happy,
Whether you know it or not :)

You Found Me, the fray.

2010-05-17T22:37:00.004+08:00

Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang,
And all I needed was a call that never came.

But in the end everyone ends up alone;
Losing him, the only one who ever knew
Who I am, who I'm not, and who I wanna be;
No way to know how long he will be next to me.

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

Dear, You.

Whiny? Yeah.

I'm still wrestling with the questions in my head, to be dead honest. I hate it. I'd rather sink back into bright happy bliss without ever having to question anything. But it was going to come to this eventually, I guess.

I've always been a reciprocative lover, a sad fact about myself. But how can I continue to force out loving feelings towards someone I don't even know? I'm angry, with what happened, with You, and I'm not going to try to run away from the fact anymore. Right now I think the best way to love You is to get things straight with You.

Time to reconnect what's in my head with what's in my heart.

Still searching,

Kay Jen.

Had a good week?

2010-05-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

...I did. :)

I am so frickin' proud of the netball girls of Chempaka PJ. Honestly, you don't need a gold medal to prove that you've won in so many ways. You guys shocked the socks of EVERYONE with how much you improved in SO little time. I mean, the stakes were 3-month-old netball players against 3-year-old netball players wtf! And you made it up to second place double wtf! Besides, failure puts success into perspective, right? And I have absolutely no doubt that you can win that reputation back for Chempaka PJ next year >=)

So at the end of the (bloody hot and inescapably humid) day (from which I received a lovely sunburn and a lost voice) I still say, GOOOOO Chempaka PJ! WOOT!

I sound like a fangirl. I probably am. But I mean every word I say :( Maybe I've got that letting go issue with the netball team T_T Curse of team sports! Hargh.

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How do you make my brain slow down?

You sedate me.

How do you make Ying's brain slow down?

You feed her spicy food.

Today was a surprisingly interesting day.

Happy Barfday, Kay-Ti Ong :D

ngaw,

2010-05-13T23:33:00.006+08:00

*While driving to KFC for lunch*

Kayjen : *turns on radio*

Taylor : CAN YOU FEEL THIS MAGIC IN THE AIR?~

Leonard : Yes, YESSS! *grabs Tian Xiong's shoulder* CAN YOU FEEL IT, MAN?

Kate : Wtf don't terrorize Fido pls.

Leonard : oh, FIDO, let's make some magic in the air!

Tian Xiong : *silent horror*

I FINALLY installed adobe woohoo! Now I can doodle properly! Not like that anymore! ^ And I can also play with Photoshop, nyahahah! And loads of other really cool and use-ful/-less things ehek yay playtime for meh :D

...Oh yeah, and I can get my project done. My project which takes 20% of my grade. Yeah, that too.

Mmm.

Okay, bye! O:)

all i can say is...

2010-05-09T23:50:00.004+08:00

"Eh?"

A detached observation : I have been crying a lot these days. Tearing up. Sobbing my eyeballs dry. Bawling my head off. Mooing like a mad cow.

I swear, it all started with Ip Man 2 :( Which you all should watch anyway despite that ONE stupid heartbreaking scene.

Oops, spoiler?

TEE HEE.

Oh, and Happy Momma's Day, Mummy :D

I love you!

Says lil' sista;

"Roses are red,

Violets are blue

My mum may be naggy,

But I love her too!"

*insert cheeky smile*

....That brat.